at Wheeler. I have noted more high welcome to serving nice. I am your first those dozens rather I guess I’m your second host analysis Aileen Adorno, one of posts I I am also your host Dylan Summers, ill, what we can do in the first episode is, we do not think Bill Russell for letting us record in studio eight. thank you, Bill Russell, thank you very much, Bill. yes, Bill is a I’m sure everyone knows is the pot father of the popular, outcast network and using gracious enough was coming here in record and and I love you guys. thank you and so you must do just say exactly how you watch. I talk to you. I miss me. I’m not very photogenic guy, but I can be a dolt looks good, and those are what you should people should so that’s how you record is all it is a nice present on each other. the last of the we are a reference to Gordon story, but how we met. just let people know how I delete we got into a lot of sexy stuff last episode gave me a murder sandwich once a murderous and much of a gamble when you when you still like meat that we save me how to be a just and our first meeting was over ham San am okay with saying I used to work at Arby’s because that place is closed down in the boss is receiving some criminal charges because he screwed over the boys. this was all okay without he didn’t. he’s not receiving criminal charge the history of his employees. he’s receiving criminal charges because he broke a law of yet. I wish everyone got criminals or terrorists. once a sphere of their employment. but yeah, I my first job was at Arby’s and I was the roast beef King and the beef you say I got the point where the shift manager and i.e. gave out a lot of free ship almost the point where I probably should’ve been fired and I will give out about else is a is there anyway you can come in like business failed because of this guy he gave me a free sandwich one day and without knowing me, and I I was so delightful phase general for me. they thanked me for like six months. read every time I saw him, he led by the way men think of as much. there is a point where the ball them all out to be sitting there in their seats and I would bring out like trays and trays of food and that was at the point where they can do is anymore so I did give you food you think before and we were to begin friends there or my earliest memories of you is Super Bowl Sunday at my parents house. I don’t remember why you did it, but there’s a picture of you wearing a trash bag as underwear to wear over your pants Tyumen Hawaii to the final document has to make sense to be like right now, just like man at the grade is yet spent my earliest known about how we met over roast beef and trash bags groceries and translates the beginning of a homeless guy ‘s documentary piano and adjust the story for your fears when I threatened you might have thought sitting here just out of the blue my head pops who is your favorite clown and really thought. not everyone has a favorite clown because I don’t have a favorite found a light on. I was needlessly only got them so through clowns, not diminishing spheres, but I am and I would like maybe only clowns made your free clowns and then from there I went and I wonder what his fears are what he fears when doing on our fears about fares. I mean on the whole amount for novel will crazy weird things like therapy over the normal things you’re afraid of what your friends J^ yeah, you’ve gotten the less afraid of spiders. I am far less afraid of spiders, and I was like six years ago. you’ll often see a spider in a house and then you will freak out and call for me. yeah, yeah, I don’t freak out as much as I is the author that you yell at me when I don’t do it correctly. because you do similarly I don’t I don’t. I asked him not to kill spiders. I feel bad about like others to send them afraid of what’s faulty. until it so I I try to have him trap it and take it outside there is that without backfired on me. once I was in a restaurant is a diners and friends, and there’s a spider. I was terrified of it but I captured it myself is no house once in an empty water glass I took outside and it was very warm in the restaurant and it was like January outside was January inside theaters really cold outside, so I dumped the spider then on the concrete and its legs shrivel up instantly and I think it died before my eyes and I feel pretty bad about that. I would like is when L Ron, despite the difference able my daddy says it pictures is a thought of her like to take a picture and insects a lot and one time he found a slider as he is a picture in the book that let you take really good pictures and sex with people who is a catastrophe, and secondly reason because they come back alive. okay, so I may not get the spider. yes, he probably didn’t look later. although the end of that story is that my dad also later on suffering at this and this is before they were injured for testing and him thinking this is the spider throws that will be able to become an look inside this letter was on because before the brain is actually throws it is living in after there eaten soon after school I just got sewers. I’ve always missing of the suicide. there is there is this time my friend Logan and I went to see a show in Baltimore and we were actually going to explore the sewers in Baltimore, but we got distracted by a homeless man and fed him, and then we gave another homeless man who was a shady or homeless. it is like one of the only negative experiences with a homeless man around my life, but we helped him out and then that required us driving through Italy plan was put one to the show. there’s a sewer cap off and there’s like steam coming out of the sewer house like what he thinks down there and he’s like turtles. I was like, forgive the length you want to explore the sewers and like Logan three ventures news like I’ve always don’t explore sewers or might be too manlike listed on the way back is that the short capsule. also, it was great on the show. we go back in the sewer cap is still often on the way back to our car. we see this homeless guy named Reggie forking huge shout out the readiness to change my life almost got him ready and he that best different story for another time great dude and real recap on a Mac or cartons of cigarettes you so grateful and funk and did not want money from us like everybody’s Ariz, like all homeless people just want money. I don’t. that’s not always the case. Reggie just wanted to talk and love in our electric arc and Allegra Murphy, Reggie is there food are partially kept walking back to the car to drop off her merge grab the food would feed ready. then Bill and the sewer with that Reggie walked back to the are you and we were distracted her. we were intercepted between Reggie and the sewer line other homeless guy and then drove the homeless guy around the number too far from the empty sort happened with my Lear. if you want a good to the homeless guy just raise him that’s that’s necessary if enough of a millionaire and thought about going to come back to life. death cult. hopefully because I wanly caught. I almost got the jar and then with what I unfrozen them. one was gone and the other one of one and one of the maybe other, that would be a great short story. you don’t like the spiders we you I will call him over to take care spiders, right. just I want them to be killed to lovers, fighters, yet he’s over the stars and birds are starting to freak me out at the birds do weird stuff only I just does birds get inside of our body were inside of our old place and they just flew everywhere to what similar they were laying siege to our old apartment in a very, very minor way. there is there like there is like one, but I think a one-time, not all at once the most birds to be there at least a house is one, and that’s not a good story, but the cast ready to eat it now do they carried Fiona for presently some house D. member Cody ‘s the weather and the Burda into his room now know, that’s for both the fourth wherefore we had four words loose in the house they nested under my air-conditioning, and I change the ignition. once they were birds in the bird was flying around. we caught the bird in the released version and then we moved out. apparently there was one bird mysteriously was thirty zero to her that was the craziest fifteen minutes of our lives happened. the Burgess flew everywhere in our hallways and I went to the bathroom and we had trash cans in my net somewhere. try to catch it, getting it and him for trying to jump on it and it was nuts for fifteen minutes. you can’t exactly the best cartoon episode to believe you didn’t in order to I guess I was so weird, so that happens in an effort for me. yet, as the case under the air-conditioning is acceptable. they were there was another Berlin community. the thing they did bother me about birds as we are moving our dismantling the dryer. we had a dryer hose from the dryer to the window. I think Israel is that there’s a hole in the dryer hosted the heat is going anywhere apartment and then there was a bird nest in the dryer hose something the same part of my others distract and then I’m like I have put in check. I just broken and all of a sudden this hay explodes everywhere a bird shoots out of the dryer and Kevin and is like flying around what this is this is like a day after dealing with another bird loose. yeah. I got a good time to bird things around. it was it was on veritable, you called me up. I tell designs or text me their freaking out. I was so angry as noted above, the bird we were. it was just everything with cash so chaotic in our lives. we procrastinated moving to move a bunch that for once and all the sudden birds were just absorbing so much of our time because we have to safely catch and release them so your free birds and that’s why I was ever in birds. this is the freak me out unsettled. I don’t settle by Burnside started to consider than the Hitler’s of the nature world. I will rule that is the Internet. fifteen. what he said would rule of that is the Internet. oh, everything, everything comes back to Hitler in several number one hit a bird once I hit a bird three times my car, all of which were accidental. I had a very silly to my car and feel that it’s really very a letter I think your really feeling. I felt that have no salvation. just it just hitting birds look like a big like cavemen robbed out of the club club clubs did this once I’m I was. I was also moving in the springtime, and is a lot I do move a lot in springtime air. these goes crazy. every, every animals by another animals and like the front is moving and dude was helping me move and we load a bunch of stuff in this vehicle and were driving to move and in the middle is reduced to birds and in my mind, these birds are in love and their meant to be. and there’s a truck coming towards the birds and unlike on my phone can dial) get out of the way and I think maybe I hardly that is watched in terror and the truck was approaching the birds. the birds then fly and one goes this way and I’m like I’m watching it the Windows less one zigs and the other. that’s when the other side but should visit because the other one flew directly into my vehicle and it’s gone to yet it like have me in the bird had a head-on collision and it sounded like line without now how valiantly someone is better now than a better start now. now now now change at stories of those lines in your car yet that but no one really had it it bottles look like where we move into guys. unlike bird and friend flight wing around the idea lice from it the burden hits the card and and floods, and I I look out. I stop the car does not does no one behind my friend has worked going on, but I stop and I get out to see if it’s okay and it’s not okay. it’s dead on. yet you feel that the iPhone awful because that bird was in love with the other mine is talking. their lives. man am wondering what was the Melbourne was the female birth. now there was it about to retire. they both mail merge with both female, not of it really matters. they were allowed a I was wondering loaded and maybe I I seem like they just hit a fee number. the lags today, like how many lives that I take because I needed to move at that very moment and I don’t know if you think effort was going to be the next Taylor and I and I deliver reason I verified that all individual back in time and kill the burnt layer as a baby would you do it to. I would just be in his blood. I would tear him apart. I would like to think that I would eat his heart yeah fun and awesome like that sweetheart was long though sumptuously I like the other lively reserve for the art or older. Hitler Imus and Art Hitler because I was wondering in my big art Hitler in intricacy was he one of the hardest. right yet so much I thought there was like it in my mind I I would rather kill the old Hitler and I was like what I rather kill him after he committed an atrocity to feel better or before he committed the atrocity to save the atrocity and I thought about my motivation for wanting to kill adult Hitler and then I was like, what if I come before the atrocity and I was like was his art really that bad. I kill him before, like when he’s Art Hitler. okay, so what else unsettle your New Year’s story about the birds reminds me of a story about mice talking Arnold is one now you. this is tight). you might, and am not trying to be mean, I’m super clumsy. Justin is a little more book club I I think sometimes you don’t plan ahead very well, but in a different way than I don’t plan ahead very well could. I think I and I’m sure I overthink stuff, but in the moment. I think I really do consider options and I explore different ways to do things and that Batman. I will want to be like you. as I worked on morally obligated to think the key, I realized there’s no one it’s all bad, and there’s no one it’s all good. what I really want to do my best to convince myself that Hitler is all back but all Nazis are all that and they don’t have children. they’ll have souls and our feelings and so I’m really clumsy and I suck at planning things go on many careless as the word, but not careless in a bad way, but I just think sometimes you act carelessly and you walk really need to say walks like a camel and they also make me feel that I was not now say it’s a story we had a mouse problem from all of that Dylan put on some no kill traps everywhere. they will just say they are and people that want to say they put the kill traps as they don’t work. I think those people just have a problem killing my switches find before and honest. tell me you don’t mind taking the life of something sexy inconveniences, UK falcon stupid houses in its habitat, whereas mice is not mouse us were where’s the natural habitat of the screen shields Earth Earth, and we’re on, and facilitate other space in their digging up our space to we belong on the earth just as much as they do that so we can surmise Tom Thumb capture a mouse on them every time. everyone there was once a really tragic incident where I didn’t check the traps for a while and when I checked it, it was no longer with us. I felt terrible about that. everyone that I let go, manage, I’m thinking that they lived a wonderful life after I let them go their people to drink martinis. if you have there. have a good time will you, but then racking is there a telephone. I try to have Justin what my schedule and I think that it didn’t work out the first bunch of times. the first time only did it once exactly I rather ties as I hate can you let this one down, you like I got into the wagon of USA where you will be taken like to see you somewhere where it’s the one time the you actually got to let Moscow heat. I’m on the work and I’m on a smoke break. I see text. I got a lot of investment, says some and I guess what happened when I let the mouse loose fans so I’m long since outlived whatever into a Tupperware container and I was on my way to work out of our free knowledge of Moscow. so I stop off at this field. unlike olds. my slope fields. I get out and I put the mouse. I put that the board and care down in the mouse is like waiting for the mouse. I do not put it in the field now put it on to the path off the field. yes, the pool off area when another one for maybe one foot show foot, which is one human for the mouse design while to amend mouse decides instead of running into the field that it’s a run under my car and onto the highway of the highway but like the road we doesn’t ask me guess what I’m while at the mouse go. I said let me guess a giant hawk swooped down and carried to its death, and is exactly what happened, and he or she takes back. yes, and I was like, are you serious if you like. did you see my post on Facebook and I guess did you make the post. at that point I remember that I was the only asked if I heard about it. somehow I was like no, I just thought what’s the absolute worst thing that could happen that would never happen. that’s what I’m going to respond with because it will be funny and I’m thinking, as it’s crossing the road. unlike mouse, audio you’re in my car I think I’m not a label that our rag mouse is going the other side of remember whenever an unsealed in the air. he jealous1 Pennsylvania northumberland sunbury lawsuit newspaper sex porn dick art artist writer comedy mnmomn mike’s no mic open mic night poetry funny hilarious philosophy smart sharp witty wry aware politics how to fix self help ranch make made making progress free signup free shipping vinyl record free good paying job nude blonde fucks money dollars million secret to secret of pay rent avoid charges racist run episode one first episode spoilers classy rude write intelligent diy hip hipster shamokin pa the jealous one youtube thejealousone youtube Justtubed videos fun popular unexpected surprise music experience cute cats kitty adorable kitten fail jump keep your house bank scam false rumor troubleshoot solution virus solve solution pain sick epic rumor horror film American lost gun control new Star Wars sequels United States Suspense Serial drama legit sitcom lies art artist broke money free halloween dracula good nature battle spirit martian conspiracy theory fingers work coffee genres apart indie hip punk rock comicon comic books film director famous way beat the odds survive liberal fight cluc tyler durden marla singer just find us there is a burden of Mike was back to the barn. that’s right, it’s the birds fall, so the bird, just like he ‘s cool down and just a catch is that melts and flies away with it. he did nothing else can fight in total of no something. what I wasn’t sure from where I brought I don’t thing I would’ve done it. I would like to know you live your life upwards, I would never put that heard on the if you would just thought it through and put it in a funk and bullish it would’ve been fine. I don’t think so Dick Nelson made the decision not to go to the field. it wanted to cross the road over to the other field after I’ve let go that mouse. I had no more response that I say here and now. what’s now I’m not saying I’m a safe and fun averted after the mass of what you say that you want me to play the birds of the data. I am in Vegas Woody and Duke said they fly pretty fast. I think it will be greatly like hang around to be like put it down. you have certainly thought it was last. I felt terrible, is available, you do have and what you are going to have it know how we kill that we contribute to the death of a living thing. so we have, you don’t want about him out of the house. you’re right you’re right, we do have a good fit. it is, I guess. glad positive from it, but hearken if you insist on men like you’re the one who operated it from his home. I I guess it probably had a whole mousy family back there wondering where their Poppa is that I come back and tell you the story and the probably the baby mice are in the ball hearing the story, like public. this got killed by a bird with yellow bird is that how young they are anti- felicity. I I feel. I feel weird now that you have the well-being of the mice in the walls and like if we should release the Mall, suite a cage. you are clear in the house what was his mice everywhere with Mycenaean chip during the Keating collect myself just and just let him go all at once when every six months. take the mic on about. I feel bad for splitting up their family. I know that sounds ridiculous balaclava persons iPod with landmass family. I would always let the mono in the same place that is a story that would have an amino type so is another thing unsettles you we got when we got we got birds. birds made the first thing class. her love you. for those writers you might imagine how I is by I’m Jennifer Gabbay, burglaries and mice, there’s a funny how that was a bird story. yes, if you really want your bird I saw really nice word to avoid a mouse, Cyrus, truck stop to stop hating every animal you I matter how vague I actually break for a firefly lately. I was on my path, and it lit up and I was like as a firefighter sofa can hit the brakes so that hopefully avoid you run into it, we’ll just disoriented and whatever you don’t suggest mushing his body and my car with, would you swerve and I had a kid yet, since this is your I read so I read this review of a book written by a guy in Long Island, who hit a kid when he was younger and about the repercussions that had in this life. I read that review years ago, a laundromat. I just terrified me. I was like what would happen if liking your driving into town. the kid runs out. it did seem like maybe wasn’t his fault necessarily mean this is a horrible twist of events, Charles, her fate, whatever. yes I would. that would far me up and out the agreeableness is visiting naked, yell your existing like that is probably a fear of mine accidentally killing somebody or being in a situation where CE or maybe a situation where I would get shot. I don’t enter city terrified of inner cities. Gonzales story before you go on before was not Hitler. yes, absolutely. I would run hit run my car into his family into his mother and I would get out of the car and just eat him to a bloody pulp and a third with just whenever I had the bluebird. but what if that’s what I was even his blood. now I kill there’s no way maybe it was yet in way, I wouldn’t just paddling the mother focused on down, which was inner-city street on about the last time where you are driving. I freaked out. yeah yeah yeah eight is a number to the story amazes. I didn’t realize where we were in. I started freaking out when I realized what we were where we were. yeah, more of a story to that than I thought. sometimes I go to cities with white people, and they freak out. that’s knowing Larry doubt I I don’t. I’m not saying it’s because you’re white and I’m not saying we won’t. we were in a relatively okay part. it definitely looked pretty sketchy, but we were. we were fine and nothing bad can happen and we were a little off. we have GPS injustices like telling me not to stop at stop signs and in my mind. I know he’s not that guy. he’s never been like talking there and again and again assists of this is your implying that I’m not that I was afraid of black people, but I’m not overly date of I’m afraid. of course, I’m afraid of getting shot. okay bye buddy of any color with her were there any visible guns in our vicinity. now, not to my knowledge whether any white people walking on the street. I can’t remember who was one chemistry prayer from an eyewitness point of view what will I be walking straight so in my mind when you like, don’t stop at the stop signs like this. this looks getting this looks bad, don’t, don’t just just keep going. just keep going. don’t ask her direction. but I I just thought, like all men, don’t I know you not afraid of of people, unless an individual would give you reason to treat with caution, but it just seemed at the time of his life. now I sometime. but this man. I don’t know why either way is really strange. I was on my phone for a while and then I put it down. I looked outside a wrong turn and placed in a you took a wrong turn down is lawful, that and then I looked up and realize that we are literally sketchy looking area asked her freak out. I used to freak out at City Hall. the time Peter Goodman, there is never a point where I was like this kids from Central PA can sometimes I go places be like Hardy regular show and they’re like yeah, I can’t really reality in his efforts in following awesome like sucking blonde lives like it would work but I was that guy that like I used to be afraid of the big city to deposit you what the Philly was. and then I just remember being like that touristy like only public will the big tall buildings and then level, we will accept the first time at the filling things last time we went to Philly when do we ever agree to the floor. he the last time I went to Philly with my first time that leaders. I was my first time with you. I know you went there, you should jack and I kept him I go to Philly with meal have a fun experience. because I don’t know what else I know cool thing was on the city ‘s rivers, Laurel and illiteracy from how that wasn’t well know, I guess we were in the city when I was in New York them something that you and I went to heaven, yet I have forgot to. we just have fun in New York after he yelled to you that you never forget around because I would remember it and probably take jobs at it. I just I I have always had a bit of the fear of the big city and Linda Lasko years I started to travel to see people from the Internet and YouTube, and stuff like that frame in the news back on this Justin was raised and as was. I guess I was right. we’re all we raise in central Pennsylvania and I I think Justin didn’t experience a lot of other culture or people outside of Central Pennsylvania. he then started doing using videos under the moniker of just two and he made a lot of really cool connections with really great people and I think from that started traveling and on a personal level was cool to see you know, I mean your growth. yet when meeting and experiencing for me to sit through it, you handled that really gracefully you what grew I think some people would still start still be like all these people exist out there, but I think you let you let that inform your life, and I think that made us on always and necessarily good things you, but I think to consider a larger picture and allow that to inform you as a person to grow jobs and the masses be lifelike and born and raised in a die here. this is all for Zalman, now you know what, maybe you will be born and raised the solaria, but I don’t think you are your average sense of central consulting in my my stereotypes. I think you are extremely glad you’re extremely cold. so that’s the background of yeah yeah bus going to fill yet likely I would do what I started making connections on the Internet through YouTube and Twitter and all that stuff that is when I started traveling and I went I would than in your city or Washington DC air Philly. I have less of a fear of the big city, but I still get kind of nervous. that’s so weird to be to see that happen to see you get nervous. I thought he was kidding at first, like right. I can’t be a light auto can do this and I’m like slowing down and Mike God for bid, stopping at stop signs. you now and just like all imaginable. the windows downright ugly very irrational moment imagine that he likes our point is Windows on the more serious note, I guess I do have a fear of life losing people. can I have lost a lot of people to a car accident and then, like fires in my life, so there was a period of time where I worked at the Hudson news organization where the scanner would go often like I would hear about accident and it would be like close to someone that I know, like where they lived, and I would visit immediately. tax them. hey, there’s an accident very okay and even now if somebody calls me and they call me like twice or three times in a row I get freaked out because I’m afraid of their calling to tell me like some really bad news like Jay does that to me all the time we’ll call ages. once the call gave my friend Phil call. just try to get a hold be to find out when doing so call over and over and over again, and I’m just adjacent freaks me out. you need to like text me and said nothing is wrong to try at all of you. so yeah that is a real fear. I do have a fear of that order. what are your fears of inspectors got a lot of fears. I think maybe I I I don’t know that I love the demands I have another analysts usually have a lot of concerns. I don’t like spiders seem afraid of not doing something I am afraid I do that with your life, not other people ‘s standards, but I think to mine. I’m afraid I’m afraid of looking around and seeing so many things that I’d don’t understand or can come to terms with, or can make sense of and doing nothing about it and letting that be my existence is on board. I do nothing except for work to pay my own bills. I do self-serving things and that I die without affecting anyone out as a positive way gap there. there is that I would both have a very creative spark. I guess you do artwork that you stories and I have that fear of not being remembered after I die in ordering like here’s a noun. the reason I give a crap about Justin Strasser, you know, do you have that fear to. they’ve yet same way that I described maybe yeah I I did this to voice VLAN one one is to look at it and say like the idea. like all of that is bull shipped in a hundred years. why care if people care and I I get now be dead yet I I get the idea of wanting to leave some behind the will impact other people. but I wonder. on one hand, is it the point of view like the idea be remembered or you like creating something so powerful that will be remembered to get maybe where I am sorry of creating something powerful, because I don’t think I think having remembrance is sometimes dictated by power, but I don’t think it’s it it it ought always yet hand-in-hand in and I think what kind of beautiful should can we create, and how much better can we make our lives much more fun to be happens we just left the line and his flock and let it ride. but then I think on another hand, if you don’t strive for something you will never obtain anything and and get better and then build yourself. yes, I only necessarily a bad thing to say. like I want to do something so powerful to be remembered, but I think, must we had the remembered part. maybe, just I want to do something powerful. the point do you ever think about having a statue built in your honor. the having it be for Lake for some reason, that’s what hates you are not adding up a conversation, but that you’ve affected some of you so much that they tear down a statue of you. I would like. I think, would you ever like to be toasted for your death. but I do you think of Abu waywardness. yet I think just to invoke powerful emotion you think would be something like love. I can out of this really pretentious thing. one time, but essentially was like if the idea of love versus hate versus in the middle in efforts to indifference and I think in different to be the greatest insult like you can love me or hate me, but there’s no time for lukewarm feelings in it was a quote like that, or something that’s mine. actually, even while ago I got this one in the bag. I would love many things. I’m sure that I’m sure those words up in seven four. it was not a huge quote because I feel like driven some enough, but I feel like the quote is like the opposite of love is not hate the opposite of love is indifference to us nothing signing same idea of what I have not yet. I hope that I have a life or when I die, there are at least somebody in this world is glad the guys glad that undead are not necessarily that I did terrible things in, but just that I don’t know about I I get exactly what you’re saying is so hard to put in the women’s art would know where exactly nothing. I don’t want to make. I don’t make a month like miserably, as is our make enemies by when make the right enemies. you know I am a reporter and it would make my career to have somebody try to take my life for something that I wrote if I expose corruption, or if I expose some horrible thing that happened and that person was like I hate that reporter enough that I’m going to try to kill him to be a ground enough for easy and is where the sound that would make my career and make doctors make my career. but like you, it would make me feel important. yet also I’ve written a couple articles where I’ve had to conceal the head somebody, and I think it would be a really cool moment in my life. if the cops came to me right, we need to know who you’re talking about and then meet as they know, and then then to arrest me for what I wrote, that would be the coolest moment of my life. that’s awesome. can they legally do. I don’t know the exact like eat to get subpoenaed. you might be able to get subpoena orders the telephone off you and I will. but again yet. mail to protect my source to be awesome. that is awesome. yet here in night. I don’t think to clarify don’t think that something you’re striving for, but I think that that is something the you would willingly accept and think that people would do that should be revered and yet cool. that’s like one of the things we can’t set up the vehicle filmmaker in output. I don’t think it’s bad to say if this happens, this would be great. I remember a police of my dorm yet I felt the secrets out and I I just wanted to throw that in the next. I think I intend is never transparent and I feel like I am familiar with you as a person so I can speak of your intent. now, did you have any other fears that you wanted to express like him, and took over your last one. we refund about not being nothing check and not affecting not affecting our world ideal. I is not a fear, but it makes it really foxed me up to think about the times in your life where you realize that someone means more to you than you mean to them as I think people want to put friendship on a plane and say like we’re friends and their perception of friendship is what this other person has for them. but it was never like that yeah, I think in everyone’s life. I I don’t of people around the I think it’s it’s all the perception you yeah and I think if there were times where I received someone to care more about me than they actually did, and when their actions with her actions made their intent more transparent. it really for the help and maybe be like that. I put so much stock into you and Mrs. yes, I think I’m afraid of making connections of people, and letting people in and then yet and then just getting into forgettable. not trampled on value. another was a situation the scene of the analysis section of my steamy crap. it’s decorated it, you got a feeling when you’re done. as you know is that as much to someone as you make that it may be guiding of afraid of experiencing the feeling again which I’m sure I will does for life. we should talk about memory sometime number we had some conversations about perception, memory, and yet that life is such a funny thing. it’s a system so many yet strange places I visit that will certainly start above really, really silly. I landed up in a really serious place of a clinical yeah, I like I like doing that with you and I like doing the opposite with you. I like to let’s get weird so that it doesn’t. as always as the talking ethically and wrap it up yet so good thank you guys for listening. thank you for listening. I have find us online. just find us the finest in the world and help their gap by his guts are